life sux.

this is my own life. can i just have some say in my own life or not? everything i do always has a benchmark already set by either siblings or others. why cant i have my own freedom? you claim i dont hav any self limits. well you're totally wrong. i am human as well, can you please think about that? and im not like those kind of ppl that are really addicted eh. i still have consciousness about me getting more and more addicted. last year this already happened. you could come up and counsel me. but do you even noe tt you're partly the reason? you probably think that everything you do is right, everything you do is for our own good. my foot. we're from different generations. your thinking isnt the same liao. cant you understand? you say dun compae things with other people, yet you will always compare my results with my friends or your friend's children.

i want my own life.. you expect me to do this, yet you yourself do that? if you gamble, and you expect me to not gamble, can you see the ironicity in this? you hardly set any examples for me to follow.. its like trying to walk on a road blindfolded without any instructions.. my whole life is screwed. im trying to salvage it. but dun expect me to be a miracle. i am who i am. i dont nid directions for my own life all the time.